Looking back over our journey through infertility I can’t help but be overwhelmed by the goodness of God! When we started this journey I had in my mind what I thought it should look like. I could clearly see all the pieces to my puzzle, and see how they should all flawlessly fit together. What I didn’t see is that God had a different way that our puzzle would fall into place.
I knew God was going to make a way as we began praying for a miracle. When we got into the thick of things I kept waiting for any moment to end up pregnant thinking we will begin to pursue these treatments and my miracle will be that I become naturally pregnant. I was praying for a miracle, but I already had in my mind what it should look like. I was giving it to him, but still holding onto the reigns trying to co author for him when he had already began to write one much more beautiful. One that no one could help but see him. We must have complete faith and trust in God’s ability to move the mountains in our lives.
If I were the author to my own story it wouldn’t have turned out the way it did. I may have picked the easier route, which in turn would have made me miss out on so many things that make me a part of who I am today. One of the biggest things I’ve learned is there’s something on the other side of our no that helps us grow. I got no’s along the way of things I wanted specifically to happen. I didn’t understand at the time, but on the other side looking back in I do. If someone were to read my story like a book they would see Jesus filling those pages. They would see those miracles he performed in my life. They would see him shaping and molding me. They would see him helping me share my story to bring glory to him. They would see the amazing community of people he has connected me with because of the story he has written for me.
I encourage you friends to take a look at who is writing your story. Are you surrendering everything to the Lord, or are you still keeping a tight grip on the reigns of your life. It can be hard to let go, but I promise you the story he has written for you is much more beautifully orchestrated than the one you could write for yourself. No matter what he was and still is good!