Love, your Mama

As I sit here in your nursery listening to the rain outside and watching the rise and fall of your chest I cant help but sit here and hold you a little longer. Rock you a little more studying all your sweet little features.

Before you were ever here I used to sit in this same place and rock in this same chair. Dream of the day instead of my journal and pen steady moving in here, that I would spend the time I dreamed and prayed for so long with you.

Now I sit here reading the letter I wrote to you before you started growing in my belly. Before you even became the little embryo that could. I vividly remember the Lord speaking to me and telling me to write a letter to my future baby. I put it off not knowing if I could emotionally handle something like this at that time. A few days later on a Sunday morning at church one of the sweetest most encouraging women came up to me and said I saw this, immediately thought of you, and had to buy it for you. It was a small book called letters to my baby. It had different pages in it that you write different letters to them for special times in their lives. This gift was so special to me, and obviously the Lord was showing me even more that this was something I needed to do.

That day I went home and I wrote the letter, and had such a special prayer time. At the end of the letter I wrote I can’t wait for the day I get to hold you, my sweet miracle baby Lincoln McCawley Lee in my arms. I love you already. Love, your Mama. I could feel the Lord’s peace washing over me. Now I sit here and my miracle is in my arms, gives me hugs and kisses, and calls me Mama! Those are some of the most special moments that fill my day!

Friend, today I am praying for you. Praying that you get to experience those same moments. Praying that you get that baby or babies that will make you a Mama. I’m praying against all the things that are trying to come against you to keep you away from your promise. I’m praying against fear over you. I’m praying and speaking life into your womb. I’m praying for your finances during this journey. I’m praying for the adoption process you may be going through. I’m praying that all things that need to come into alignment with you or your spouse’s body would. I’m praying you continue to have the strength to push through as you finish your injections or treatments. I’m praying for your heart as you take a break. I’m praying and believing for healing from the top of your head, to the soles of your feet. I’m praying for strength for you and your spouse. I’m praying for peace. I’m praying you don’t lose hope.

I pray that wherever you are at in your journey that you take this moment to remind yourself of the promise that God has for you!